Restless

I feel restless today. I keep working in circles, getting distracted and trying to get something done but it's just not happening. I feel bored, but have a huge list of things to do like cleaning, laundry, final preperations for Aarons party, figuring out what to make for our Sunday School picnic on Saturday, hanging my new curtains (ok, actually I can't do that since I have no idea where any tools are for me to use so scratch that one) etc... I just feel strange. (No comments from the peanut gallery, Sara!!) I did my devotions this morning and usually when I do that I have much better and productive days, but not today. *Sigh* I am having dinner with Sara tonight and as much as I am looking forward to it (we have a lot of catching up to do-my mom is crazy, you know!) even that is not helping right now. I need to focus and prioritize. Maybe I should make a list? (I know, I know, that is the Hairy coming out in me!) I don't even feel as if I could concentrate on a list. Maybe I will get on the treadmill and then do a little tae bo. The aura cleansing at the end always makes me feel better! (Note the sarcasim- I am NOT into aura cleansing, but it is a nice little cool down). Actually, I think that is part of my problem. For the last two days I have not exercised and I think I feel depressed and guilty. Hmmmmmm, maybe I am going crazy due to hormones?? There are so many possibilities! But really, I am tired of this weird feeling.

I have several things on my mind too- things that are unresloved and I'm not sure of how to resolve them. Actually, part of it is that I don't really WANT to, but I know that God is telling me I HAVE to. I guess if I had a clear direction as to exactly what to do to reslove them, I'd be ok. In one situation I feel as if I wasn't wrong at all, so it kind of makes it harder. I know I offended someone, but it was certainly not intentional. This is the hardest situation for me I think. I just want to apologize and move on, I don't feel the need or want to be friends again. I don't know if she would even allow me to apologize without turning it into some huge nasty dramatic scene that is totally unnecessary. Again, *sigh*. Woe is me :)

I need prayer. I need to fall on my face and ask God for help today, for there is no one else who knows what do to or exactly what I need. I need you to pray for me also. That I will have wisdom and be open to what God wants me to do.

Now I feel a little better. Partly because I was able to vent/share but also because Aaron just woke up and came in to give me a kiss. He leaned over and paused right before his lips touched mine. Guess why? Anyone? Anyone? ("Bueller? Bueller?") He wanted to poochie just as he kissed me!!! Nice. I laughed and am thanking God for my son who is a welcome reminder of how God blesses us. Now I feel better. Not really like I can totally concentrate, but better. Now I'll have a little tae bo buddy today, so that should be fun. :)

Happy Thursday, Friday is almost here!!!!